Not sure what to write about this month.
Nothing positive anyway.
After last month’s bad luck surely my luck would have to change.
Wrong !
Two races I was looking forward to and both a focus for the first half of the year - SPIE Internationale and TT Champs.
Both ruined by illness !
I went over to Holland for the 3 day event not realising I was coming down with something, about 10 15 minutes into the first race on the Friday evening I knew something wasn’t right. It was a hard race but it wasn’t just that, i literally just felt empty I was just going backwards, I didn’t finish and I went home after. A long journey at the time of day, didn’t get home till 3am. Woke up the next day with swollen glands. The worst possible prep for TT champs, but I still wanted to try. I kept my legs moving in the week and thought my throat felt better.
I tried at TT Champs, but I just couldn’t push hard like I normally do, it was very very disappointing and again my glands were up and a swollen throat.
No Road Champs for me.
Spoke to the doctor and he’s booked me in for some blood tests next week so maybe that will show something?
In March at the start of the season I felt good and super strong and thought the season was going to be good, I had prepared and trained well and was excited for what was to come.
I can’t fully explain how disappointing the last two months have been.
From Mechanical problems, crashes and illness a list of DNF or DNS I have missed out on so much racing and training and feel the hard work has been wasted.
I’m currently having a few days off and hope to start again at the end of the week. My results will be disappointing for a while I need to build back up again which is not easy to process when I have expectation from myself and from others.
I really appreciate all the support I receive and I will be back stronger